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I choked back a sob.
“Something is wrong with me. Something is definitely wrong with me…” My voice caught as another tear slid down my cheek. “Why in the world do I love you so much? This can’t be wrong, I know it can’t be, not with what we have… but… does anyone else know that? Does anyone else care, or even understand? Will the both of us be damned just for feeling what we do for each other?”
“I don’t know, Jewel,” he whispered back, his dusty emerald eyes dull with heartache. “God knows I wish I could tell you, but your answer’s as good as mine.” He shook his head and turned away slightly. “I’ve asked myself the same exact things,” Chaos admitted, his voice tight. “Why do I love you as much as I do? I mean, think about it. I was dying to be with you long before you even realized what you were feeling.”
He again shook his head in resignation as I took another deep breath. “Why has nothing faded over 5 years? Nothing? If anything, it’s become so much stronger than even our initial realization… and we used to think that could never be outdone.” Chaos laughed then, but it rang with incredulous pain and nostalgia rather than joy. “Now look at us. Look at how far we’ve come, how much we’ve said… look at us.”
Our eyes met then, the love and pain alike between us becoming something almost unbearable.