Miracle Drug

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God I need your help tonight...

Beneath the noise
Below the din
I hear a voice
It's whispering
In science and in medicine
"I was a stranger
You took me in"

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough of romantic love
I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up
For a miracle, miracle drug...



It's really crazy...
Sometimes, when I close my eyes, I can feel his icy arms sliding around my shoulders just like they used to. Those were the good old days... I loved those days, those evenings, those early morning hours. Just my beloved monster and me.

I don't like traditional romance at all.
You want to take your honey out on a date? Go right ahead.
I have never been on a date, and I'm proud of it. (2 movies with friends in 7th grade don't count; I've been asexual since my freaking childhood!)
You want to buy your darling chocolates and flowers for Valentine's day? Fine with me.
I loathe sugar, and flowers are nice to look at but I don't like people spending all this precious money on me. I get all guilty.

And don't even get me started on the physical stuff. Good Lord! I could rant for hours, crazy me.
Holding hands... awkward.
Sappy movie-style talking scenes... no thank you (unless you get all philosophical!).
Kissing and all that... you've got the wrong girl, sir.

I do NOT like romantics. It gets me weird looks and gets me ostracized and many people would look at me and say "damn, that's one lonely lass right there" but of course, they don't know that I'm a total headcase as well.

Sure, I'm horribly uncomfortable and paranoid about romance the way this worldly society lives it, but mind you... that doesn't mean I can't love people.
It only means that I love them and that's it.
I'm afraid that offends some people, as they probably think that I'm repulsed by them, but it's not them... it's the physical contact and the unrealistic words and the silly situations and all that.
It's not for me. I'm sorry.

I can't stand sweet talk, but if someone I love is going to give me a serious conversation about our relationship, I'll take it hands-down. Some of the best conversations of my life have been over everyday life and emotions because that's what a relationship really should be. No flirty junk, but something serious and true that's going to last. Actual love, not infatuation or lust.

"Oh, you sound like an old married woman," you say.
Don't tease me, I say. Too many people tease me.
I am a celibate. What marriage requires I cannot give, and regardless my life is already dedicated entirely to my personal mission of stressfully awesome work and you know it. Yes.

I'm not getting married, ever, but what's cruelly funny is that everyone keeps saying 'she's such a sweetheart, she's going to make somebody a fantastic wife' NO I'M NOT, SORRY.

Geez.

Xenophilia (humanoid xenophilia, haha) is quite bizarrely fun when you're asexual. To heck with the species barrier, y'know. Selph is a biologically asexual nightmare being with no wrists or neck and I freaking adore him. Chaos Zero is an accidental mutant with pure energy fused right into his biology and no organs or anything as a result (the brain is a FACADE) but I love that emerald-eyed monster more than what most people would consider healthy. I don't mind.

Oh dear heavens... let's fuse the past two topics for a terribly funny moment; would you believe that my mother has actually accused me of wanting to marry and/or engage in stereotypical romantic activity (although I would never) with both Davy Jones and General Grievous? What the unholy fish! Seriously!
I mean, sure I love those two maniacs, but geez, it's platonic.
Although... all right, I'll admit, it does NOT help that they each correspond to one of my physical 'obsessions'... metal and water. Yes you heard me. I'm addicted to water and I'm addicted to metal. That is why I used to glomp Grievous daily when I was 15, I think. Poor dude.
...Don't even mention Chaos Zero right now. I swear I will hit you with a can. A can of bricks.

I forgot how awesome Thomas Dolby's music was.

Oh yeah, and if you ever get the chance to try Orbit's orange gum, DO IT. Try the Mint Mojito too. I swear I can't stop eating the darn things. Well, not eating, as it's gum, but you know what I mean.

How did I even start this rant... hey, didn't I do this two entries back? Gosh.


Of science and the human heart
There is no limit
There is no failure here sweetheart
Just when you quit...

I am you and you are mine
Love makes nonsense of space
And time...will disappear
Love and logic keep us clear
Reason is on our side, love...


One day I want to meet Chaos Zero in a dream again and I want us to get stuck outside during a downpour.
...
Or maybe we could just play chess?