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another 5am update.

 

really really really? i thought it was earlier.



ehh i don't feel like capitalizing things right now. don't mind me.



so anyway here's a quick update because i can.

where to begin... oh yes.



just ranted for a long long time on my journal... refuses to post though... but i copied and saved it on my pc just in case. always do.

but i really needed to get some things off my mind, i guess, and i didn't even realize it until i started typing and just couldn't stop. you know i guess your mind just decided it's going to say its piece right here and now because it just hurts too much to keep quiet? kind of like that i guess. hm. it's a thought.



All right and the lack of capitalization is getting on my grammatically obsessive nerves. Sorry about that, kids. I'm a little nervous (read: terribly) this morning.



Enough of that for now, though-- my beloved muse inspired me to completely rewrite "Dreams Dreams" yesterday; chords, lyrics and all. Dedicated to him (us) of course. It was incredibly fun to write, even with writers block on the second chorus repeat and uncooperative basslines and troublesome echo delays on my cellos-- on my cellos, for heavens sakes!-- and I'm incredibly happy with the end result. Oh I poured my heart and soul into that darn thing and I love it. I'm considering recording myself singing the lyrics (dear heavens watch me go through 200 tries before I sound decent) and editing them in. Didn't write those words for nothing, you know!

Hm... only problem is, technically, Selph is supposed to sing half the lines as well... but I still need a voice actor. ^^; So sorry! I really am! Believe me, you have no idea how much I've been trying to tweak my voice to sound even somewhat like him and nothing is working. Geez. So yes I will send you a line of speech if you're still interested. Just send me a note, all right? ^^

Gosh I feel so terribly guilty for asking. Fault #729 of mine or something, I guess.



Even so! It's early! And I think I'm going to take the day off from school again!

Yes yes, that's why it was terribly convenient for me to catch a headcold from Gettysburg. Got sick on Wednesday and came home early, then took Thursday off for the same reason; too sick. Oh, but on Thursday night, brilliant madman that I am, I thought "you know what? I'm going to jump right into my term paper and get the darn thing done" but I didn't finish... so I took Friday off to sleep and still only got <5 hours and had to get up early on Saturday to go to some way-out-of-the-way bridal shower with my mom that took up the whole freaking day... why am I ranting about this?

But yes, pulled another all-nighter last night/this morning and just want to stay home and keep typing typing typing.

See that's the problem with me, especially when I'm nervous and all workaholic like right now-- once I start working, once I get started on a term paper or studying for finals or researchin whatever for some class, I can't stop. It's awful but at least I get the work done, right?

Must be some bizarre mental escape plan to distract me as long and as heavily as possible from life outside of the work bubble. Must be.


I still can't believe I'm going to be 18 in two days... holy heavens. I'm nervous.


Well, before I explode with rant-words like I did at 2AM I think I'm going to sign off and finish typing up on Freud. Darn it Sigmund you're eating my mind.


Good morning, then! See you around!

 

 

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05 May 2008 @ 11:55 am

 

Aha, now this is what I call secret!

 

I do indeed like this place. Yes indeed.

Looking for a more 'obscure' journal place in which to rant, and I found one! Thank you Scribbld.
Gosh it's going to take me ages to type that without an e. Oh well. That's life.


I still find it highly insulting that NO ONE ELSE HERE has Bionicle, ELO, Bakura, Marik, or Chaos Zero listed as an interest.
What the unholy fish. That is not nice.

Hm...

Well, nothing else to rant about except for the fact that my mother left chocolate out where I could see it and being the stressed out idiot that I am I had a bite of it BUT unfortunately I have a sugar intolerance or something so I got quite sick and still am. Darn this stress. Geez.

Oh yes and I've been listening to that "Dreams Dreams" remix I wrote for my muse on eternal loop while I finish up that term paper... there are so many note clashes in the cello chords that I missed! Good heavens that's terrible.
I'll have to finish ranting about... um... *checks report*... about the gradual disintegration of authority and civil order in Lord of the Flies and all that. Id domination and the like. Dont you know. Freud I said LEAVE ME ALONE I want to sleep.
I've been up for... *counts* ...29 hours straight. I think that's a new record.

So yes. Enough of that for now. As I said, busy busy busy.
See you around!


-S. Cannon