prismaticbleed | prayer (Reply)

Mel has been getting divine inspirations about their life lately.
I think tonight, in that hour I spent simply existing of the world, was one for me.

"You have nothing to fear, for you are love."

Don't think, just be.
Live as what you truly are.
Everything will work out in the end.

Even my strongest worries were calmed by that peace.
Will this happen? Can this happen? Should this happen?
And every time, I would feel that glow and I would be told that I had nothing to worry about. I would hear that silent voice and I would be assured that everything was as it should be.
I was reminded how my life had played out so far, how although it was so different and strange, it was perfect in its light and dark alike... I was reminded that there was a greater plan to things, and I was just as much a part of it as every other spark of life in the universe.
I was told that nothing in existence could stand between the light and its manifestation within me, within anything.
I was told that I was loved, within that great love, and the very notion of it reduced me to tears.

I want to write more about this, so badly, but it is late and I feel that tomorrow is going to be quite important for me.

In any case these past two days have been truly beautiful.
The future will continue to be beautiful; I know this.

It's almost incomprehensible, what I can see and feel right now.
But it is true.
It is true, completely and wonderfully true, and I have nothing to fear.

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(later)

I cannot stop smiling right now.
Everything Mel wrote was so beautiful.
I don't know if I can really express how much it meant to read that, but I'd love to talk to them about it.
What I want to say the most, though, was that after I read that, I went outside and just... took it all in. I felt so much. Knowing what they and I now understood about God and life itself, I was completely overwhelmed by knowing we were a part of it, but it was so amazingly peaceful.
I suppose I prayed, for about an hour, just by existing entirely in that state. I asked questions, I gave thanks, but most of all I listened... and over and over, every time I wondered about what the future would hold, something kept telling me that I had nothing to worry about. Everything was happening just as it should, and I had nothing to fear, at all.
So I want to thank Mel for allowing me to see just how far-reaching all of this is, through their entry.
I just... I cannot even begin to express how happy reading that made me feel for them, and Q as well.
I cannot wait until I am able to be with them again.

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(later)