prismaticbleed | venting (Reply)

I am SO PAINFULLY ANGRY because """"oliver"""""" is on twitter reblogging fanart of spinel and saying "MY CHILD" etc etc etc HOW BLIND ARE YOU, CAN'T YOU SEE THAT SPINEL IS LITERALLY ME HOW COULD YOU LOVE HER AND HATE ME

YOU LOVE THE CONCEPT BUT YOU'D NEVER LIVE WITH HER. ADMIT IT. ADMIT IT BECAUSE YOU TRIED AND YOU LITERALLY HATED ME DIDN’T YOU

I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU

I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU WERE IDEALIZING ME SO HARD THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE ME WHEN YOU SEE ME ON SCREEN

ALL YOU DO IS DRIVEL ABOUT SEX AND QUEER GARBAGE AND "ETERNAL CHILD" SILLINESS AND "YAY HORMONES SECOND PUBERTY I'M A BOY NOW" STUPIDITY AND "MY BOYFRIEND IS HOT" INANITY WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU

IS THIS HOW YOU ALWAYS WERE AND I COULD JUST NEVER SEE IT?????

IT'S DISGUSTING

IT'S LITERALLY LOATHSOME

I HATE MYSELF FOR ONCE HAVING WANTED TO BE LIKE YOU

I NEVER WANT TO BE LIKE YOU

LET ME STAY RED AND DAMAGED FOREVER

I HATE THIS SHAMELESS DISASTER THAT YOU HAVE BECOME

I hate hating someone

I really do.

"is it millennial culture to grow up making incredibly sad and tortured OCs, and then, in your 20s or 30s, decide to give that sad old OC everything they ever wanted and make them finally be happy if it's the last thing you ever do" they reblogged on twitter.

WELL GUESS WHAT SOME OF US ARE STILL SPINEL.

why did we have "sad and tortured OCs"??? MAYBE BECAUSE WE WERE GOING THROUGH A LOT OF TRAUMA AND THAT WAS THE ONLY WAY WE COULD EXPRESS IT

DEEP DOWN WE WERE INCAPABLE OF EVEN IMAGINING REALITY AS SOMETHING LESS PAINFUL

now that we're older, why do we want them to be happy, BECAUSE WE'RE TIRED.

I literally just want to die so everything will be over and I can FINALLY be with God BUT!!!!!!!!!

IF I KEEP HATING """OLIVER""" SO MUCH I will never get in.

god help me

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