prismaticbleed | a prayer to disclose it all (Reply)

Lord God, one day, You will reveal every single secret. You will bring every hidden thing out into the open. You will shine Your brilliant light to reveal whatever has been veiled in shadow. Everything boxed in the back of the closet, everything hoarded beneath attic cobwebs, everything forgotten in the coal-dust basements of our souls— You're dragging it all out onto the front lawn!
I beg You, God of Revelation, prepare me for that day. Help me clean up and confess now, before it's too late. Whatever sins have been lost to memory or shielded from awareness, show them to me. Remind me of my weaknesses, my failures, my omissions, my neglect, my foolish wanderings and stubborn rebellions. Bring it all to mind. Uncover every sin, so that You can absolve and heal me, and so scrub my soul clean from all that pitch-black guilt.
Help me to 'fess up to everything, with no excuses, no justifications, no downplaying, no depersonalization. I am guilty, I have done shameful things— why else would I be hiding them, afraid to even admit they are there?
Lord, on that awful Day, I want to be able to stand before You with a conscience You Yourself worked to purify. I don't want to approach Your Throne sheepishly dragging a garbage bag stuffed with all the junk I had denied I owned... until You threw it all out on my lawn. No, I want to hold my hands out to You in humble sincerity, my heart open to You in surrendering love, and say, "My Lord, You know that, truly, there is nothing I have hidden from You." I can only say that then by virtue of Your grace and action now. Help me to bring EVERYTHING to You in prayer, trusting in Your mercy and willingness to save. Give me the wisdom and courage I need to see and admit it all. Jesus, You called me to repent, and I know that can be a terrifying task, when the very things I must repent from are the last things I ever want to admit I did. But I also know that You will enable me to do so, by Your Loving Power and Your Spirit living in me. Christ, my Savior, I trust in You!
Amen.