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Actually felt RESTED after sleep
Has to do with DREAM LEVEL???
Genesis and Chaos 0
Chaos singing "A Million Miles Away" to me, with his own words
"I want to be yours"
I will never forget how his voice sounded, or his expression 

Also last night: JESUS, MARY, & THE FEAR-SNAKES

Nousfoni joining me at Mass
SHARONA SHOWED UP???

Bible study: YOUR PURPOSE IS YOUR PRESENCE

Deserts: YELLOW!!!!!

Hugging Xenophon and crying from joy on the way home
Listening to Belle OST, think we need to buy this movie
PURE CATHARSIS
WEEPING from emotion listening to it

Bonus laundry day

Talking to lotophagoi girls about no spices + no extra eating for Lent
Could SEE THEM!!!
The one who wants to add spices-- the "just one more" girl?? Has PIGTAILS, color is light yellowish brown
Nervous "have to finish it" nibbler girl is legit chubby?? Medium length straight mousy brown hair. Possible greenish vibe undertone?
Laurie was angrily telling them that they needed to realize food wasn't a toy or a ritual or an empty action-- it had DIRECT PHYSICAL EFFECTS and she did NOT want us getting sick and/or vomiting again "because somebody couldn't control themselves and ate more than the body itself could objectively tolerate." Emphasized that there IS a RISK OF DEATH in many circumstances, especially with vitamin overdoses & blood sugar roller coasters.
During this, "nibbler" listening, quietly got carrots out for Lynne without sneaking from the bag. Then quietly smiling she told Laurie "I didn't eat any." Laurie was so elated she straight-up HUGGED the kid

Xennie "working overtime" 

Sharona briefly lecturing the lotophagoi for their narrow pursuit of pleasure
"We only recognize beauty & joy because they hint at something better that they originate from; that's why nothing temporal satisfies. There is a greater, eternal standard that we were created for" etc
Reminds me of our prayer from yesterday

ALSO "I'm a Noir. so I know what I'm talking about." Inventing jargon??
Laurie asked how she changed, she replied "Infi, basically"
"When the Core of a Hue changes, IT CHANGES THE WHOLE COLOR"
IS THAT WHY LOTUS'S CORRUPTION KILLED EVERYTHING???
ALSO DOES INFI'S CORRUPTION MEAN SHARONA IS THE REAL BLACK "CENTRALITE" NOW???
(Also concerning Black remember yesterday's homily about MYSTERY)

Jesus talking to "but I want it" girl
Jesus said "can you give it up for love"
"I don't know how" and a moment of shocking clarity "I don't think I love ANYONE but myself". Visibly troubled by this, awakening of conscience?
Jesus: "I'm not asking you to give it up forever, and I'm not saying its bad to have. I just want you to be able to be happy with AND without it"

So tired & weak after breakfast
Distracted by Spotify music trying to stay conscious
Belle & mr.children
Wondering who was "core" during the jrock phase

Quick lunch at 4pm
Poetry writing with mom
Wrote 4! Thank God for inspiration

Ring in store looked like a seraph
"Oh no I actually really like this" legit might buy it to replace old ruby "wedding band"

Home for 8pm
Small dinner, getting really weak & shaky

SO MUCH BIBLE READING

Scary heart fluttering at 1111
Gotta get sleep