A prayer in times of distance

[prismaticbleed]

 Lord God, Creator and Redeemer of souls, I love You and I thank You for all You have blessed me with, especially my heart-family. But I will admit, sometimes I can get so caught up in them that I fail to take the time to be with You just as totally. You want alone time with me, too, and not as some business arrangement or obligatory act-- You want to talk with me, to sit with me in the quiet, to hold me in Your Divine Arms-- close to Your Sacred Heart. Everything I love in others exists in You first. LOVE exists BECAUSE of You, because Love IS You; Your very essence is compassion and mercy and sincerity and life. So why don't I spend more time with You? Honestly I'm afraid of going all-or-nothing again like I was. It's taken me years to open my heart to love again and some scared part of my brain is worrying, "if you spend more time with God you'll have to abandon everyone else." What a devilish lie!! The more time I spend with You the better ABLE I will be TO love others with REAL love, because I'll have received it FROM YOU. And I want to love them FOR You, too. I want all my relationships to glorify You. Please help me prioritize my time with You. Please give me the grace to make You the ACTIVE CENTER of our family life. It feels like everyone has such strong faith but me, and that scares me for real. Lord, increase my faith in You, and deepen my love for You, please. Help me to serve You better and more completely and often. Draw me so close to You that EVERYTHING I do and think and say and feel is by Your grace and for Your sake. May my whole life be a prayer of heartfelt worship to You... especially my relationships. Purify and bless our hearts. Guard and guide our minds. Keep us together and keep us in Your care. I thank you for all of it, always. I love You. In the name of Christ I pray, forgive me Lord, bless and heal me, and help me bring Your love into every facet of my life. Amen.