UNDERTALE DAY 5

undertale TAKE 5!!!!

it's 11pm, let me go put on a pot of tea first.



all right so. since the last time i posted, i did play a bunch.
i got through mettaton's cooking show bit-- which was brilliant (the 'vegan' commentary was my favorite part)-- i got a "hot dog" of questionable origin from san's equally questionable shack (how in the world does this dude take it and himself everywhere?), and i laughed out loud at papyrus' glorious selfie status update. it's been fun.

currently, i just finished the arrow puzzle (with the blocks that change their direction) and i'm standing at the "bad opinion zone" safe star, next to the locked-up cheese.
oh boy. here we go, let's see what we're in for!


all right so i just fought the armored guards and THAT COULD NOT HAVE GONE BETTER.

i gotta admit, for how fast-paced they are, mettaton sure knows how to make a fun doom-scenario game show, haha. i actually enjoyed this, although i literally had only two seconds left on the clock by the time i finished.

alphys i want to hug you so much.
not only is she recognizing her own growing confidence but in spite of her nerves she just goes "i'll protect you" and "don't worry" and man. i love these characters.

but there's asgore being mentioned again and i know she just said to smile but. even if he is a real softie, i can't shake this feeling that there's something else to this big picture that we're all either missing or are unaware of. we'll see.

cute spider girl! those had better be pastries of solid gold though because dang girl
the guy who did buy one has one of the most distraught looking sprites i've ever seen.

and now alphys is fangirling over her favorite show to me and that is precious. sounds like it'd be a cute show actually.

spiderweb time. i have to say this is uniquely unexpected, this sudden bout of arachnids in the middle of this sweltering cave of sorts. but it makes sense, if i'm leaving the heat for the literal caves now.

now who is spreading these cruel spidery rumors about me, that's not cool.
ohhhh and you're mad i didn't buy your stuff. sorry darling i'm not rich.

AH SHE'S EVEN CUTER UP CLOSE LOOK AT THOSE EYES

oh wow this is a fun boss fight but it's difficult too!

(btw i found out why i'm dissociating. i'm letting my sentiments get caught up in "automatic response mode" which, being excited, is getting translated into red-remnant speech. it's very very social-based. i need to overlay myself even into this game or i start to slip out. so remind me to do that. if i lose headspace, i can't 'exist!' my function is anchored inside and i need to carry that with me.)

back to muffet then. she really is adorable.
i wonder why she's a boss monster though, as in, i wonder what her bigger role is in this? so far every 'boss' has tied in strongly to the thread of the plot as it applies to me. but little muffet here has come out of nowhere, practically.
maybe there are boss tiers? who knows. i'm thinking too much today, it comes with the dissociation.

i did buy stuff at the first spider bake sale, but perhaps she doesn't remember that, aha. guess i should have kept some on hand.
even so, it's almost midnight, and i would like to win this fight before going to bed (and it really is a fun fight) so let me try again.

...and i died at lunchtime once more! i like her cupcake pet though.
take three.
(i told laurie "i'm at the purple boss" and she wanted to see and she's very pleased with this, haha.)

this music is great. i'm giggling though; what with her little dance and this great tune, i honestly just found myself bouncing along too. i still am!
thank god i remembered to equip the apron this time! the extra bit of health is a life saver.

and i survived lunchtime at last!
ah, starting to see her motivation here.
the heated limo is precious, as is the baseball field. such cute ideas.
but my heart breaks for these little bugs. i can see why they want the money.

FINALLY THE TRUTH GETS OUT, thanks for the telegram sweetheart i was literally about to die
"i thought you were someone that hated spiders" no love, i am the exact opposite of that sort of person
(that tiny spider holding up the telegram is adorable btw)

ohhh and here's another purple room. let me run back to the save point real quick, i need health.

now i'm on stage and oh my lord. mettaton is all dressed up for this role. i love this guy/ girl/ whatever/ robot.

i actually really like this song. i also am wondering about the message. mettaton, buddy, do you actually care about my well-being or are you just playing along with the drama?
and then,
"WELL, TOODLES!" *instant dungeon*
i swear that is the funniest thing i've seen all day.

THE MAZE IS BACK
and i'm cracking up because i originally wrote it down and then deleted it when it didn't work for papyrus. go figure.

okay, from memory=
pink=safe
green=monster
blue=water
orange=scented (don't go in water)
yellow= electric?
purple=
red=
DUDE I DONT KNOW i hope i dont die geez

"i'm so filled with grief, i can't stop laughing!"
i swear i can't help but like this guy even if he is trying to incinerate me at the moment.

the fact that he's still singing during this death maze is fantastic.

his battle theme still has the absolute best intro btw. it always gets me feeling nervously excited for whatever's going to happen.

"so... thanks for letting me help you."
that is one of the most important things i have heard yet.
she had low self-esteem until she had the chance to assist me, and then she saw that she was capable-- she always was, but until now she hadn't seen it for herself. she had only seen her mistakes.
babe i make mistakes too, you saw 'em on your screen, you don't think i'm a failure! think the same of yourself, love. you've helped me so much, you might not think it's much but it is.
what i'm trying to say is.
i used to have an upbringing of "do it for yourself" which meant, if you accepted help, you "weren't strong enough" and/or you were "inconveniencing others." this little exchange with alphys here, just knocked that out of the park.
sometimes, just letting someone else help you, is a bigger action. you're helping them. it's not about your pride.
i also think it's important that the person feels valued and appreciated even if their help doesn't pan out the way they were probably anxiously expecting. and that's fine! the simple fact that they wanted to help you is something they should be sincerely thanked for.
i feel like i'm rambling. the sentiment isn't lost, it's a good message. maybe just letting it stand on its own would be better.

ahh and the guards got their ice cream! i'm glad.
and i got a big smile, hee.

oh my gosh i have a small screen up and when you walk onto the stage the title changes to "UNDERTALE the musical." that's great.

you wear that dress, lion man.

back to muffet's save point until tomorrow.

i'm exhausted. no matter how cool this is, i really need sleep.

see you next time~

 

 

 

UNDERTALE DAY 6

undertale TAKE SIX!!!

really i just want to see mettaton again to light up my day so HERE WE GO


dinner with sans!
this music is gorgeous.

"maybe sometimes it's better to take what's given to you. down here you've already got food, drink, friends... is what you have to do... really worth it?"

"so naturally, i respond 'dishes.'" SANS FOR HEAVENS SAKES
honestly though this bit with sans telling toriel jokes through the door is the sweetest thing.

"...buddy."
that bit legitimately creeped me out. i know he said he was joking, but... that just felt really ominous.
i know how monsters think of humans. i don't doubt that, had toriel not had him promise to protect me, i would have been "dead where i stand."
and i STILL don't know what sans is capable of. i'm sure it's a lot more than he lets on.

"you haven't died once." if you only knew.
...i wonder if he does?


"take care of yourself, kid, because someone really cares about you."
^ this is what i've been telling ourself for weeks. it means a lot to hear it again here.


"a robot with a SOUL... that's, like, SUPER relevant to his hobbies!"
OH DUDE HOKTHAI ALL OF A SUDDEN let me pay attention to this
(mettaton acted like it was his idea to be built; he always treated alphys like an old friend)
"that's not how they do it on the surface"

burgerpants is equal parts hilarious and heartbreaking, because those jobs CAN do that to people and although it's presented somewhat comically, it's still sad.

"Nothing down here ever changes. But wait! There's one thing that keeps me going! If Asgore gets just one more soul, we'll finally get to go to the surface!"
"It'll be a brand new world! There's gotta be a second chance out there for me! For everyone!"

everyone down here is just desperate for this shot at life above the surface. no wonder i'm being hunted down across the board.

the "any time, little buddy" still makes me snicker though. that face.

"He'd be OK if he just treated us with some respect. But he just acts... really weird. And then acts like it's OUR fault he acts that way! Like, when we asked him to get those Glamburgers... he dropped them and ran away before we could even say anything! We were, like, going to share them."

"The girls say I should stop acting like they owe me, and if I want to be FRIENDS with them, I should just try to see things from their perspective?"

"Well, that kind of guy... you hang out with him once, then he wants to hang out... all. The. Time."

on that note, waaay way back in the past, we did deal with a few people like him i guess? either secondhand or what i'm not sure. but we have empathy now. people who do that, aren't seeing things from the other party's perspective well. they get so excited, they feel so much worth, in (finally?) being included, in being able to hang out with someone... that they just become obsessed with it, i suppose. they become addicted to it, and aren't considering that the other person has a life outside of them-- because, maybe, for the person obsessed, this 'hanging out' is their main thing in life right now.
i don't know, it's hard to verbalize. i think we were like that, as a kid. we were allegedly very socially inept. i know for sure that when we finally found a friend, WE wanted to hang out with them forever because we had no one else. so of course, our 'obsession' was completely normal in our eyes, because not only was it all we had, it was something i couldn't imagine not having.
but. i wasn't seeing it from the other person's perspective, because at the time i couldn't? i didn't understand how she wouldn't want to spend all her time with me too (there's our old "twin" obsession again). it was difficult, and it took heartbreak and time, to really understand that other people thought differently than me, that i had to give them space to live away from me, whenever they needed to.
i guess that's what is really meant by "stop acting like they owe me." i never thought of it that way.
it's less of an "owing" for me, more of a... more like, we expected them to respond to us in a certain way and when they didn't we got upset/ angry/ sad/ whatever. all three?
but we've learned not to expect behavior from people, as that's intruding on their free will to be whatever they need to be. and we no longer need to hang out with people in order to feel worthy of friendship, or in order to feel self-worth at all.
bottom line is i can understand where both burgerpants & bratty/catty are coming from here.


now, people need their room service so off i go on the grim reaper boat.
"Tra la la. Somewhere, it's Sunday. So be careful."
will do, haha.

Did I ever mention that I love how warm Snowdin's shop is? It's lovely.

just spent all my cash on that mystery key. now to go fight pyropes until i can afford things again, oh boy

all right, got 700g, that's good for now.
off to the core.

I like this entranceway, with the hotel music echoing behind us, and this looming structure creeping out of the dark. It's quite a picture.

calling my BESTIES before i go in here though
"Even without words, we'll be with you in spirit, OK!?"
"YEAH! YOU CAN'T GET RID OF US!"
 i love you guys you're so great

all right now i need to backtrack and keep calling these two.

"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GOT TO DANCE WITH METTATON!
Big deal... Earlier, the human and I danced with DEATH!!!
WOW!!! IS DEATH COOL?
Yeah, she's like super hot."
UNDYNE YOU'RE THE BEST

I love the bit about them wanting posters for their puzzles & fights though=
"We could have a barbeque!
AND FIREWORKS!
And a second barbeque!
WON'T YOU JUST EAT BBQ INSTEAD OF FIGHTING?
Let's do it!"

I love that Sans interrupts our phone call to make a spider pun

All right and I don't want to go back and do the steam maze again, so off I go all the way back to the core door.
aaand let's go RIGHT this time!

I love how these two interact. Undyne is always joking with him, it's so great.

"EXCUSE ME? I AM THE VERY COOL ONLINE GUY, COOLSKELETON99..."

Aw, and Alphys is responsible for the water cooler? That's sweet.
I am so glad her secret crush is obviously reciprocated, aha.

I cannot handle these phone calls, they are the best thing ever.

"What?! Limes rule!! I eat them whole all the time!!"
"WELL, ONE TIME I WAS GIVING MYSELF THE SPA TREATMENT. I PUT THE LIME SLICES IN MY EYES, LIKE ON TV. BUT IT STINGS!! HOW DO THEY DO IT!?
"Oh my god! Those aren't LIMES! Those are CUCUMBERS!"

I feel so bad though. when Undyne hears I'm almost at the core, she says...
"What!? No, we just became friends!! You can't already be that close..."
sweetheart i want to hug you over the phone; i really really don't want to leave you two either but. the game has to progress. aaaand remember i'm still trying to get you guys to the surface, so. keep your chin up love.

"It's kinda cute... I mean-- I'm tough!!! I love to eat rocks!!"
UNDYNE

"isn't love supposed to be FIERY RED? Like a cartoony human heart?"
ahhh and i like that comment in light of this game's biggest motif.
"WELL, IT WOULD BE AN AFFECTIONATE NAUSEA.
Okay, yeah! That's me!"

i just
i love these two so much

and i've literally backtracked to every single room in hotland to hear what they have to say, haha. WORTH IT.
sooo i'm going to walk back a bit more, forgive me.


"That was YOU?? What on earth were you even calling for??
OH! I WAS JUST SAYING WE SHOULD ALL HANG OUT!
As I was trying to kill them?!
WELL!! NOBODY STARTS AS GREAT FRIENDS!"
that is so important to remember. thank you papyrus.

"Well, you're gonna END as my great friend!"
"N... NO!!! NOT THE FLATTERY SUPLEX!!!"
and laurie please take notes we need to assimilate this injoke

sorry love but i'm not doing the lantern room again. i'll go the other way.

wait wait that turtle dude was in the WAR???
i didn't know napstablook used "they" pronouns like me. i'm sorry buddy. i'm still trying to unlearn the automatic binary pronoun thing myself.
i love undyne's story of how she met alphys, but it's also so sad because that sounds like alphys might have been suicidal at the time. which goes to show just how significant a simple caring word can be, how important it is to listen. it does make a difference.

"The only reason we have modern technology... is 'cause of all the human junk that flows from the surface!"
I remember using that concept once, or at least contemplating it, but it's cool, so there it is.

"...this bird NEVER once thought of giving up!!! Cherish this bird."
I loved that bit. There are so many good lessons in this game.

oh boy. i just found... temmie village.
i am laughing so hard at "HOIVS!"
this is all so incredibly silly, i love it. i also love the sound it makes when the tems talk.

GO TO COLLEGE BABE

I'm a little sick to my stomach because I just realized that I haven't been selecting the CORRECT spare option for at least one (two?) enemy monsters, and that's probably going to affect the outcome of this.
geez. i'm really upset about that.

...but then undyne answers my call with "You can't do the jimpity jumpity joodle!?" and that helped, haha.

"Every day, people come here and wish to the stars... I won't let them down!! I'll make everyone's wishes come true!!"
"I WISH I HAD EIGHT LEGS... SO I COULD WEAR FOUR PAIRS OF HOTPANTS.
I'll make most people's wishes come true!!!"
all right that's hilarious but, i love undyne's devotion. i've probably said that before. she is so determined to help EVERYONE, it's really moving.


The boatman just said, "take a break every so often" and that's a good idea. i really should call it quits for today shortly.

but FIRST, BACK TO THE CORE!

let's make that phone call one more time.
"we're counting on you, so don't mess it up!"
i'll do my best darling, i promise. i always do.

now in we go.
and WOW THIS IS DIFFICULT. can't say i expected anything less but whoa.

poor alphys though. my heart aches for how this is affecting her.
i know the guy in the diner said this place had interchangeable tiles or something? so they could change the layout at any time. i wish i could tell her, take at least a bit of panic off her mind. but that's not how this goes.

these monsters are all callbacks to the originals.
astigmatism is GORGEOUS.
i also love the fact that knight knight is FEMALE. that's super cool.

all right, after much wandering and fighting, we're at the core end.
should i go in the door tonight or not. HMMM.

yes. i'm going to do it.
i have like five minutes. i'm going to save it, walk in, then if it's too huge an event, i'll quit.

OH YES
THERE YOU ARE, DARLING!
i did promise myself i'd get to you today so LET'S DO THIS

and oh. oh wow, wait. this bit about alphys is huge.
"all so she could save you from dangers that didn't exist."
i get her motivation for it, i really do, i don't condemn her... but still. not the best thing she could have done.

ohhhh my lord and THAT'S why you were never hurting me in those death traps!!!
dude this is heavy.

GEEZ YOU WEREN'T KIDDING ABOUT PLOT TWISTS
this dude is literally trying to STOP asgore BY KILLING ME WTF THIS IS NUTS

ah darling you had me up until you said "so what if a few people have to die?"
i've gotta change your mind on that now, love.

wait, wait up, i know what's going to happen with this switch, i have to see this before i quit.

AAHHHHHH HE'S ADORABLE


and i have no flipping idea what to do in this boss fight but i'm not complaining because the music is BRILLIANT and these poses are brilliant and oh geez this is great.


I HAVE TO GET SOME SLEEP THOUGH DARLING I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW



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@10:12PM



To the manic alter who keeps talking to the brother and ranting like a fool about tv and videogames and therefore 'corrupting' our perception of them=

STOP.

Undyne and Mettaton are my FRIENDS and I will not tolerate you floundering about and giggling that they're your "new character crushes" when you don't even know what love even is and you aren't even capable of feeling and the INSTANT your "crushes" show depth of character you LEAVE.

stop it. DON'T YOU DARE HURT THEM.