June 2nd, 2014

 

dream journal for june 2, 2014

 

(looking at engelbaum poster, white gen looked different? pink lotus eye markings, anahata shape (12 petals). i remember thinking that was my gen momentarily? either way it confused me, white gens shouldn't have pink makeup, who was that?
then something with a play? don't remember that.
last scene switch. standing on road at bottom of hill, on the side of the house across street. it looked empty. it was evening, everything was bluish, fairy lights? lots of grass, HUGE tree where driveway is (think ferngully huge), roots all above the ground in a big sphere, glowing inside. there was a little girl standing there, about 8 years old? wearing a simple dress. she had fine collar-length hair, orangey blonde color. she was almost secretly talking to someone or something in the roots of the tree, glacing about to see if anyone was watching. she saw me, stopped talking and moved away to stand by the house, looking at me with some suspicion. i was wondering what was up, looked at the tree, and noticed that there was actually a large dining room hidden inside roots of the giant tree. the room looked perfectly normal, like it was part of a house. there were about 8 people inside that room, all sitting at a table together, talking, looking out at me pointedly. serious, somewhat studying, but not negative. i suddenly realized that this room, and the people in it, were totally invisible from about 15 feet back. i even stepped back to see, sure enough from some distance away the glow even 'disappeared'-- but it was a weird sort of disappearance, like i "knew" and could intuitively FEEL that it was there, and in my mind" i was sure it was there, but as far as literal perception was concerned there was nothing. the little girl saw my confusion and asked what was wrong. i told her how i saw those people she was talking to, but when i walked away i couldn't, and it made no sense because i could still feel them there. i then offhandedly commented that it "looked like headspace" and that it was cool that it was in a tree. the little girl suddenly got this "ohh," look, like she had realized something big, and said something like "then you're safe." she then moved closer, and suddenly i could see the room again! i pointed it out to her, excitedly. she nodded, and the people in the tree looked shocked as well, like they were waiting to see what happened next. the girl spoke up again, said i could see that room again now because "i was inside her sphere," and that my mind was open enough to understand such a thing in the first place. apparently that was rare. i was still confused how this tied into my apparently significant headspace comment? the little girl smiled, a bit abashedly, then began to explain something called "SPHERES OF INFLUENCE." every person emitted one, size depended on mental power. usually never extended a few inches beyond a person. but while in this sphere, there was literal "headspace visibility?" like other people could SEE system members, etc. (did and multiple systems, imaginary friends, tulpae, etc.) a rare few people could extend these spheres several feet or more beyond them. this little girl said mine was HUGE, like 100+ feet around me? apparently it was affecting how people literally saw the world while within that sphere. normally spheres wouldn't change that much physical perception in people? anyway this was notable, the little girl was like this too, but to a somewhat lesser extent. i was excited that i might be able to meet other people and their people, like this. it was such an exhilarating and grateful feeling, i was so happy. but i also knew i had to be very careful. the girl noticed my reaction and did comment on this, said you can't go out into the world projecting "too vividly" if people aren't ready to see such things. even if someone's mind is mostly closed, even a bit of subconscious receptivity to such concepts would allow sphere "leakage" to happen in their sight? like they might start seeing bits of your world, or yuor people, out of the corner of their eyes. we had to be careful in public for that reason, keep our spheres "closed" unless people were totally and consciously open to such broader psychological and spiritual realms. hers was, which is why she was shocked that i, a random passerby at first, could see it without a problem once i walked into it. mine wasn't though! thankfully most of my people didn't "project outwards" as we traveled-- with the obvious exception of outspacers of course. the girl then commented that she saw genesis "appear" and start following me after i showed up, that also helped her trust. i do remember he was mentioned.
unfortunately there was a bit of a scene switch here? as i was starting to wake up. so there was effectively a second dream, but on the same topic, and it segued right into it. but this dream started off IN CENTRAL? there was someone there, from outside, apparently he had "stepped into the sphere" to interact with us tangibly (that detail alone was huge). he appeared highly interested, positively, no ulterior motives. laurie and lynne were sitting on the main couch and talking to him about stuff?? i dont remember concrete details, UNTIL the guy suddenly revealed that he had WALKED OUT of another sphere, as in, HE was a system member!! he said he looked a bit like his host, but the body was transgender? that fact was "hinted at," he didn't quite say it outright, there was a vibe of him trying to adhere to "political correctness". but laurie's face lit up, she said that "our host is a trans*man too," the guy visibly brightened and relaxed at that open admission, so they went on discussing the host topic for a while then. unfortunately i woke up during that bit)