what a wanderer

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LAURIE UBERICH JEWEL LIGHTRAYE




You're just a stranger.

I walk in the black light.

Boy to a soldier.

I'm fighting the good fight.

Are you really?

Yes.

Then tell me why we're here.

...Because of this morning.

Not just because of this morning, you idiot. Because we're trying to start over again here and you keep screwing the heck up. You keep reverting back to the old coding when your system doesn't even read that language. It's old and outdated. Forget what they think. You're the one, and they have no bloody idea what your life is like. They don't know.

I need to get that tattooed straight onto my right arm, so it never slips my mind, ever.

That's a good idea, knowing your head. Listening to Nier?

Yeah. I think it's literally battling Klonoa for my all-time fave videogame OST as we speak.

Heheheh. May the best music win.

True.

But about this morning. I'm pissed that you tried to override yourself again, but I'm pretty freaking happy about what resulted from it.

That awful heartache and guilt?

Heck yes. I can't even remember the last time you broke down and took a good look at yourself. You've been so stone-cold desensitized you aren't even noticing when you screw up now.

And you know what's funny? It's always the same mistake, the same little thing, and no one but me sees it as a problem.

What did I just tell you? Old code. They don't know.

Yes, yes, but it's a thought. It's my ONLY major screwup now, so to speak. All the other things... the unconscious thoughts and other backlogs, I'm fighting those and winning. "Be careful of your thoughts, for they ultimately become your destiny." I know that, and I keep a close watch.

But it's a never-ending battle.

It is.

Better than living a dull and thoughtless life, eh?

Amen to that.

By the way, pay attention. This matters, not that nonsense.

Sorry.

Do you mean it? You gotta stop spitting out apologies on reflex. MEAN them.

I do, I honestly do.

Make sure. The last thing we need is for you to become a thoughtless regurgitator.

What am I now?

You're you. That's all, and that's enough. Don't lose sight of it. And stop being so distracted. I think that's your biggest vice right now. You take your eyes off what's important, and before you know it, you're lost.

There's so much out there I don't know or understand, Laurie. It keeps me awake every night.

I know; you think I'm unaware of your insomnia nowadays? Geez. The grass isn't always greener on the other side, especially not when you're Celebi hirself. Your forests are the greenest the world has ever seen.

Are you sure?

I am absolutely sure. You know, you're always wondering why 99% of the people you meet say you're such an 'amazing person,' that 'the world needs more of you,' that you're a beautiful little anomaly. You're always asking why, why, why. You know why. How many Celebis are out there? One. You're the one.

Sounds like I'm indebted to Jem Godfrey.

Yeah, no kidding. That man played a huge part in saving you lately.

True... geez, I don't know what else to talk about.

There are way too many things to talk about. We could argue for days and not cover everything, but it's late, and you already know all the answers.

Do I?

Go find out. I'm here if you need me.

We need to talk, seriously talk, as soon as we can... I miss this. I miss being able to see like I once could.

You still can.

I know. I just... haven't been. It hurts.

Of course it hurts; your eyes aren't supposed to be that screwed up. That's what our next topic will be... you fixing yourself for good. You being reborn, so to speak.

Hence the icon.

Exactly. Now go to bed.

I find it amazingly coincidental how I have a Neoeye cake this year.

Destiny calls, boy. Destiny calls, and it is delicious.

Haha, if you say so!