empty

Don't.

 

Do NOT cry for me.

Not now. Please.

 

It's all I can think about and I swear my heart is breaking. I swear it is. I can feel it.

 
Literally.


There's so much pain right now. My heart aches so freaking much... and it's not even for me.

 

God help me, it's not even for me.
 

 

Why won't the tears come?

Have I locked them away?

Am I afraid of how others will feel when they see them?

 

I can't lock away my emotions!!! I can't!!!!!!

 

They're me they're what I am, for heaven's sakes dear God have mercy on me they're all I have.



 
It hurts so much.

 
 

And yet the last of my worries is me.



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The pain's just about tripled

 

But apparently

 

I can still cry.