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[prismaticbleed]

Listening to an Aruarian Dance. It keeps me from falling off the edge, even now.
Nothing makes any sense anymore…

Update on my head for you children.

Julie keeps resurrecting. It’s driving me mad. Satan won’t leave me the hell alone, and I’m desperate to do anything to chase him out for good.
I’ve disconnected myself from the Internet, thank God. I haven’t been on DA in almost 3 weeks, and I’m going to lock my LJ soon. I don’t want any more communication.
I also cut myself off from Q-Lok because the ‘relationship’ he decided we were in became rather controlling, manipulative, and frustrating. I don’t like relationships anyway.
I’m kind of happy now. Finally.
My Links are coming back. I can see everyone again… Volt even showed up in my dream last night! He was trying to plug a USB cable into our sink for some reason. Volt, you’re such a crazyhead.
I’m just as much in love with Bakura, Marik, Chaos and Selph as I always have been… that makes me happy. They mean so much to me, all of them.
I also seem to have acquired a major fanboy crush on Shade the Echidna. Strange, I know, but she’s a total sweetheart and we’ve already inaugurated her into my headgang, so everything’s fine.

I just need to work harder for my salvation.
Q didn’t believe in damnation… but hey, look at the Bible. That’s what I believe: the word of God.
I follow his voice in my heart and it’s leading me in the right direction.

I can see where I’m headed. It’s bright and beautiful, green and spacious with crystals in the air…

I want to reach heaven.
I just have to make sure that I never give up.



-J