prismaticbleed | 081222 (Reply)

For those of you who have been concerned about my personal life situation, here is the update for August.

My brother C, who is paranoid schizophrenic, has been readmitted to a mental health facility. As of right now, he will not be allowed to return to my mother's home.
My family has filed individual PFAs. I've been weeping over this; since he would sexually threaten me, I may not be allowed to see him again at all.
My sister B, who was so scared of C that she didn't eat or sleep for days, is moving out West within the month.
My other brother M, is apparently battling some hidden health problems. He puts on a strong front so I worry about him.
My grandmother's homestead is being reevaluated electrically tomorrow, and worst case scenario, it may be condemned. My poor mom is anxious & sick over it.
My kitchen lamp, living room lamp, AND standing fan all burnt out beyond repair within a week (I bought them all secondhand when I moved in). I currently have a very dark, very hot apartment. I need to purchase replacements but my budget will not allow it.

My finances, inescapably, are tight. An upsettingly large chunk went towards rehydration this month, because daily Pedialyte isn't cheap and my body won't stop losing fluids (my doctors are suspecting legit IBD but have ordered further tests).

My strength is gone, due to poor health. On my worst days I need a cane to walk now. I have constant vertigo as well. But I'm using the time to pray, and read the Bible. I haven't been posting as much here solely because I'm soaking up Scripture instead! Even so, I do have dozens of drafts to edit in the process. I could never learn without sharing.

I'm still helping my family by running errands and attending food drives, even if I can't do the hard labor around the house anymore post-COVID. I want to help & work however I can; I love them dearly.

Admittedly, my most selfish request is that my church is having a bus trip to the Divine Mercy Shrine next week and I would love to go (not only for the pilgrimage, but also to get to know my fellow parishioners!) but it costs $55 and that's over half my weekly allotment. I would only be able to go if I had financial help.

Donations-- for food, light, and church-- are, besides my monthly disability payment, the only source of income I currently have.

I enthusiastically clarify, however, that my greatest need is prayer. My whole family needs fervent prayers. We are all sick and stressed and struggling and scared. We have been given heavy crosses! But we are learning humility, patience, surrender, compassion, hope, fortitude, meekness, etc. as a result. The harvest is rich; the process is arduous. But Christ is our Gardener, and thus every pain sings with love nevertheless.

I thank you all, profusely, for your faithful generosity and kindness towards me and my family. 🙏😔❤ God will bless you, as He blesses us through you.