aug 8 2016

[prismaticbleed]

 

 

I keep thinking about how, lately, all I want is a domestic life, something simple and pure and good and quiet, and I feel like I will never be able to have that because I'm too much of a freak.

(who is typing this)
(let authors shift as needed. this sentiment is tangled and divided among many people)


- houses at night, driving through twilight: people sitting on porches, walking with their kids, etc. warmth from kitchens and living rooms.
wanting that sort of loving serenity and not remembering what it's like

- that ancient, ridiculously persistent want for a "life partner" of some sort
- tied to GIRLS though. social emphasis. boys in the system are INTERNALLY BASED

 

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@9:18 PM

 

 

what did you learn from the fourth of july?

we're all gonna die.

make yourself hard to kill.

be a warrior, not a worrier.

 

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@11:57 PM

 

 

*deep breath*

JASPER


#I ALREADY LOVED HER #WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME #i have so many feelings over this episode #AGAIN #but this one hit like a punch to the chest #all over the place #yes smoky quartz is ADORABLE #and very important #and peridot's little speech meant so much to me tonight #and steven is SUCH A SWEETHEART #that kid is honestly an inspiration to me #and amethyst's existential dilemma was hitting too close to home #but. #the thing that got me the worst about this whole thing #is JASPER #not just because of the massive plot relevance she holds #but also because #there's too much of her in us #too much of that raw brutal vicious hurt #and we need to think about this more #thanks jasper #thanks rebecca sugar #this show is a blessing #steven universe #jay talks #FIRST BISMUTH NOW THIS #my heart is going through the wringer this week good lord #i just want the buff and bruised gem ladies to find peace and healing #i'm sure they will but #in the meantime it aches