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phone entry 032322
Mar. 23rd, 2022 09:33 pmGrandma morning. Stayed with her for hours
Talking to Blase, health worries & gender
Had to eat at apartment; eating at house triggers trauma purging
Righteousness through works is ABLEIST. It also stokes pride & self-righteousness, judgmentality & obsessiveness.
Righteousness by FAITH not only KILLS PRIDE-- it INCLUDES ALL THE DISABLED.
Hospital emergency trip for grandma
Ascites severe
Took several hours to arrange. Like from 2 to 6pm. I was in ER & waiting with her until almost 8.
Wanted to stay all night but I hadn't eaten. I hate that I have to eat. I want to be with grandma.
Sobbing uncontrollably in car ride home
Triggered a SYSTEM WAKEUP.
INFI FRONTING AND WEEPING OVER OLIVER
me listening to "i don't want to be alone" and repeating that over and over, hysterical, sobbing over grandma
Talking to Blase, health worries & gender
Had to eat at apartment; eating at house triggers trauma purging
Righteousness through works is ABLEIST. It also stokes pride & self-righteousness, judgmentality & obsessiveness.
Righteousness by FAITH not only KILLS PRIDE-- it INCLUDES ALL THE DISABLED.
Hospital emergency trip for grandma
Ascites severe
Took several hours to arrange. Like from 2 to 6pm. I was in ER & waiting with her until almost 8.
Wanted to stay all night but I hadn't eaten. I hate that I have to eat. I want to be with grandma.
Sobbing uncontrollably in car ride home
Triggered a SYSTEM WAKEUP.
INFI FRONTING AND WEEPING OVER OLIVER
me listening to "i don't want to be alone" and repeating that over and over, hysterical, sobbing over grandma
