nov 13 2015

at doctors office.

- bad posture w/ lower body= feeling of "dumping out" lower 2-3 energy points in body?
unwanting to hold them in body field/ awareness, probably due to trauma residue


also, PLEASE write an entry about how we DO have "positive relationship alters" that REMEMBER Q but they have very limited functions, regardless we are sorry for all the bad talk that occured later.
we remember reading something about people with BPD, how they are sorry for the harsher words they may say BUT they are also totally aware that, in the moment those words were said, they meant them, and we have that too. whatever alters speak, whether it is kind or cruel, it is sincere, and it is legitimate. so we are sorry for the bitter, angry things said about those poor kids-- innocent as they honestly are-- but at the same time we can't say those things weren't honest either. and we can't take it back. so we just have to accept the past as the past, and apologize and make amends however we can, and heal, and move on.


- btw brighten our journal if at all possible? we DO have a placeholder dreamwidth so use it if you need to bro!





stumbled across the poem "imperfect beauty" by frank h keith.
we adore it.

"The rift in the chest of a mountain, the twist in the trunk of a tree,
The water-cut cave in the hollow, the rough, rocky rim of the sea--
Each one has a scar of distortion, yet each has this sermon to sing,
"The presence of what would deface me, has made me a beautiful thing.""


print that out and carry it with us forever