july 11 2015

 

 

 

SO now that I have a small paycheck coming in, I went out of my way to buy food I can actually eat.

WELL!!

APPARENTLY one of our non-Spectrum alters decided that it was either poison or "I don't deserve it," because I went in the fridge to eat breakfast and there is NOTHING.

SO YEAH
SOME IDIOT ALTER APPARENTLY JUST TRASHED SIXTY DOLLARS WORTH OF PERFECTLY GOOD FOOD FOR SOME UNKNOWN ASININE REASON.
THAT'S NORMALLY AN ENTIRE FREAKING MONTH'S PAYCHECK FOR ME

So yeah, now do I not have any food, but I ALSO don't have any cash to replace this.
AND, I don't want to replace it only to have it thrown out AGAIN!!!

I seriously want to throw up. This is disgusting. WHO THE HELL KEEPS DOING THIS????

I'm posting this here because 1) I WANT THIS RECORDED and 2) We NEED to tell the therapist about this if she doesn't already know.
This is absolute BULLSHIT and it HAS TO STOP.

I'm tired of our being forbidden to eat more than once a day, forcing down poison foods instead of the healthy stuff we bought, the body then vomiting up everything to the point of pain, exercising like a fiend afterwards, going to bed hungry, getting minimal sleep and waking up to find that everything healthy we bought has been destroyed.

I really do want to vomit from stress right now. That or cry. I don't know. I feel so utterly helpless.

Sorry for the horribly toxic vibe of this entry. I don't want to focus on this but it NEEDS to be dealt with.
This CANNOT continue.