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A summary of today:

- As a gift to myself, I bought Todd Rundgren's albums Nearly Human and (re)Production today, FINALLY ("Take It All" brought me to tears in the middle of a computer lab when I first heard it)! I might buy his new album, State, with my birthday money if my dad doesn't get it for me *crosses fingers*
- Quit my current therapist after some rather ignorant remarks he made today about my past abuse (Julie got PISSED; she's the main reason I'm cancelling). Ah well, we do better on our own anyway.
- Immediately after getting home from that, I chilled out with my bro for almost 5 hours, doing DDR and talking about existence (AND HEADSPACE!). The two of us think almost identically so it was awesome. I miss talking to him; we're virtually twins.

It's also the 15th anniversary of Dream World, at least as far as celebratory dates are concerned!
I'll put some time aside to write on their story tomorrow; I really didn't sit down until after 7PM today.

I'm trying to work with Jess/Razor as well, but they're tough customers... Razor is nearly impossible to approach, and every attempt risks severe bodily harm. Jessica doesn't attack me, but she does scream and shriek and hurt the body in less traumatic ways. After watching her today, though, I'm suspecting she anchored to a feeling of "powerlessness?" Like she WANTS to live her own life, completely unhindered and free from rules, BUT she feels barred from doing so, thanks to a myriad of rules and regulations. As a result she feels trapped, and it makes her furious... but it also hurts her, terribly. I saw that today, for a moment. So I empathize. I want to help her, if at all possible. Infinitii said he will help me, but he's been having some weird slippage lately? I'm worried. Nothing bad, just concerning. He's very important though, so I will keep my eyes open.

Now if you'll excuse me, my computer time for today is up, and I need to wake up early tomorrow. See you!