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christmas eve.
while eating breakfast and watching the snow
it hit me that our birthfamily isn't celebrating this year. at all.
first time in our life this has ever happened.
no presents. at all. no celebration. no decorations. nothing.
not that i mind, but... it felt jarring.
we used to love christmas as a kid. all the lights and warmth and music.
there has been literally nothing this year. not a thing.
i felt very alone and empty and sad
then i looked down and i realized that...
Xenophon always sits under our apartment tree
and there she was
on christmas eve
she's the best gift i could ever have imagined
and she's enough
she's forever enough.