hurm.

[prismaticbleed]

 

I asked myself a question last week.

"What makes me the happiest?"

I actually got an answer this time.


The answer is...
Living as a good person
and going back to the good old days.

The 'good old days.' Those diamond days back at the beginning of the millenium, when I was still a child. Oh they were beautiful years.
I can never truly go back, as it's almost a decade later, but that's okay.
However... if I could take those moments and bring them into my life now, however different it is, that would be perfect.


What's odd, though... is that I've also realized that there are some things I need to let go of and some things that I need to find again.
I've been in a severe funk lately, but I'm slowly getting myself out of it.
I invited Nightcrawler back into my headgang after 5 years. I met Rorschach (who's name is incredibly fun to type) just recently, and he's now a major member as well.
I've started talking to Davy and Barry and Grievous and everyone again as well.
I've been thinking about all my old Dream World friends a lot recently.

Now, I just need to get back to typing and drawing and this will be fantastic.

Oh, yeah... and I'm also trying to get back to my best behavior. Laurie's been jolting into my consciousness recently, which is actually a good thing because she keeps me under control... but it's bad that she has to show up. She only shows up when I make a huge mistake or stop being true to myself.

So I'm trying very hard to be 'me' again. I know who I am... I just need to try harder.


And now I have Italian homework to finish and work in 20 minutes so I'm going to wish you all well and call it quits.



Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?