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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
WE SANG SIX ENTIRE MASSES BOYYYYYYY

When people tell me I have a talent for singing, and I DENY it, saying "no, I'm not very good," or the like, THAT'S PRIDE!!!!!
I'm effectively saying, "I won't consider this a gift UNTIL I'm spectacular!" THAT'S ARROGANT. God HAS given you a gift, however unusual it is shaped, however small it may be, and because its from HIM its PERFECT FOR YOU EXACTLY AS IT IS, because guess what else? IT'S GIVEN IN ORDER TO BE USED FOR HIS GLORY. SO HE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT IS NEEDED TO DO THAT. IT'S NOT ABOUT YOUR EGO.


House E.D. relapse
EVERY TIME I GO UP THERE I HAVE A MELTDOWN OF SOME SORT.
ESPECIALLY ON HOLIDAYS.
It's spiritual warfare.
I prayed so hard for help. I begged God to do something with this, to not ruin Christmas with my sin.
And actually, I feel sick & tired & scared & wrecked, with no hope but Jesus. And I'm clinging to Him.
Somehow this is more Christmas than any gifts or food could ever be.