latenight

 

 

1:11 am on sunday morning

"link," then "creature"
cz clearer than he's been in weeks
his eyes look just like emeralds and he's crying
I love him so much right now. simply and honestly.

now it's blm part 2
haha thanks universe I love you too
"and you know
you'd always be the first in line.
and you know
it's all about the life divine…
a hero's ending, all the signs
you're the one
and the one you must survive

it doesn't matter what you do
you know the luck you feel will pull you through

the never ending light you find
for the one, the one that must survive

and you know."

do I ever.


aaand then it goes straight into sonic music how amusingly fitting

you know today everything in church was about water and not having enough of it
"living water," jesus said, that's the word of god
you need water to live but only the sort from the heart will never leave you dry

cz looked up and said he wanted to be a living reminder of that
he's water, he's alive, he wants to let that love shine through him the same
we're all reflections of that greatest truth and it's beautiful really

they talked about being hungry for holiness and I remembered how starved I was in 2012
it's coming back lately, it's horrible
then I realized that the only times I feel total connections are when I'm tuned in inside
including headspace when it shines
that's important.

sorry I'm rambling and losing my grounding. time to sleep.