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I'm getting awful ableist talk from my family this morning, as usual. Screaming and accusations abound, simply because I woke up today in a very unstable mood.
Well excuse me if I keep having traumatic recurring nightmares, and I'm sorry that I'm basically starting the day without any spoons whenever that happens. I shouldn't even have to apologize for this, but since you insist that I'm 'being a nuisance' for needing to protect my mental safety, I guess I have to!
Honestly, these are things you DO NOT say to someone with a mental condition:
"Why do I have to deal with this from you all the time?"
"I shouldn't have to put up with this from you!"
"Stop acting so ridiculous, you're bothering everyone!"
"Get over it and just be a normal person already!"
"If you don't behave we'll send you right back to the psych ward!"
I have spent the entire morning sobbing because I really can't handle this sort of talk from my family. This happens EVERY FREAKING DAY.
Treating me like an annoyance and a problem instead of a person. Nice.
Seriously, you do NOT threaten a traumatized person with a trip back to the psychiatric ward, to say the least. Setting off several of my triggers on PURPOSE because "it's ridiculous that you have a problem with that!" is just plain MESSED UP.

I honestly cannot handle this right now. I need to get out of here, somehow.