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So guess who gets to wake up at 5AM tomorrow and drive to Philadelphia so he can FINALLY start his freakin' HRT treatments after almost SEVEN YEARS?

THIS GUY.

Yeah, this is quite the milestone and I am psyched so wish me luck.
(Really I hope I don't get stuck in turnpike traffic because that is literally the only thing I'm nervous about, haha.)

*enthusiastically runs off to get some sleep*


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@ 10:38 pm


Dude!! Dude I THINK I just figured out why we haven't been able to properly "re-settle" into heartspace after December.

I think the SPECTRUM CHANGED??
Like seriously, you know how it shifted MASSIVELY in November 2011, back when everything changed with Julie and Nathaniel rejoining us, and the Tar being revealed, et cetera. Prior to that the lineup was TOTALLY different, I know you remember that, here's that entry just in case (I should review it too). Again, we've all suspected a flowswitch for several months now-- especially since the newest colors, Pink and Aqua, suddenly started gaining people last summer-- but honestly I think it's even bigger than that!
I've been experimenting with patterns and wheels and things for months, but it wasn't until I started working with the Outspacers that I realized I needed to shift my whole perspective concerning the colors themselves. No matter how we worked together, no matter how hard we all tried to solidly anchor, nothing was working. Colors just weren't lining up. So Ryman, Markus and I started asking bigger questions. What if there were more "new" slots that we didn't know about? What if, with the collapse of Central City, the entire phenomenon of "headvoices" had changed? You get the picture.
Well, tonight I took two hours to graph this stuff out, and the way it looks right now, I think we have twelve color slots, and the the monochromatic balance (that's still an anomaly). Brown changed position too, by the way-- again, in hindsight, it makes total sense that Spine's been having trouble with it, now that I can see how it looks when it does work.

Unfortunately I have no time to talk about this tonight-- I still have more stuff to compare and work through, and tomorrow we're going way out of town in order to FINALLY start our HRT process (so thankful about that) so I need some sleep before that happens.
This is fun. Life felt empty and sad recently but today held so much teaching and forward movement. I'll talk about that tomorrow evening, or Wednesday, whenever we have time.
As for right now, we do need sleep, so I'll be seeing you!