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Quickly typing this because it's faster than a phone:

LAURIE, LYNNE, AND JULIE ARE ALL BEING SHOVED INTO MULTI-ANCHORS
AND THIS IS WHY:
WE'RE TRYING TOO HARD TO BECOME CORPUFONI.
AND IT'S KILLING US.

I knew this all felt way too much like CNC, especially with Jade around. I just couldn't quite pinpoint the root of why. THIS IS IT.

We Centralites are NOUSFONI. We are meant to STAY INSIDE and be GUIDES.
We are NEVER supposed to be in the body!!
CORPUFONI HAVE THAT JOB. NOT US.
But... there's a subsystem communication collapse or something. I can see it even in the Archivists; they're slipping hard because instead of working with inside data exclusively, they're trying to juggle OUTSIDE data with it, and it is wrecking them.

This nous/corpus distinction is ALSO the scary reason WHY Julie has been able to front so well: SHE USED TO BE A HACKER.
Siobhan shows this ability too, for the same reason.

WE NEED TO REBUILD THE "SYSTEM" AS A WHOLE WITH THIS ESSENTIAL AND UNEXCEPTIONABLE DISTINCTION IN MIND.

More notes:
- This is why Knife's color DARKENS and he feels BURNING GRIEF when he fronts in the body-- when he was working on the "corpus" level, THAT WAS HIS JOB. Now that his anchor has shifted upstairs, his color has lightened notably and become more Pink, more compassionate-- it has LEFT that overdose of BLACK energy IN THE BODY SPACE WHERE IT BELONGS??????

IS THIS WHAT SCREWED UP INFINITII SO BAD TOO???????

There are SO many factors to SO much that we never realized until now, THANK YOU GOD even though this is terrifying.

Honestly though let me brainstorm for a second before we eat. This is a game changer.
We NEED to GO BACK to ~2015, when we were officially diagnosed at last & therefore began to do heavy-duty work in terms of clarifying jargon & mechanics, for the purpose of communicating data to therapists and, more importantly, understanding the details ourselves.

HEADSPACE LEVELS STILL EXIST and they are VITAL to understanding how EVERYONE FUNCTIONS.
The problem is, HEADSPACE COLLAPSED AFTER CNC AND NO ONE HAS REBUILT.
Everything is in ruins, covered in fog, and unstable. The ONLY places that are shockingly still stable are the COLOR REALMS!!!!!
LOOK INTO THAT BECAUSE THAT'S A HUGELY SIGNIFICANT REALIZATION. THAT MEANS THEY EXIST ON A DIFFERENT LEVEL THAN DEFAULT "HEADSPACE" for lack of a better term (yet).

Concerning "default headspace," aka the "levels" like in Inception:
"CENTRAL" is the highest space?
SUBLEVEL "in the skull" or "behind the eyes"??? Watching fronters?
"MIDSPACE" is, spatially, in the "collarbone" area somehow? It is NOT "in the body," but "just above it", like a balloon is in the room but not on the floor.
"?????" = WE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT "SPACE" THE ACTUAL "CORPUFONI" INHABIT?????? MAYBE BECAUSE IT'S NOT HEADSPACE?????
"LOWSPACE" is, spatially, in the "solar plexus"? It is "just below the ground," like steps leading downstairs? or a window-well. Oddly shallow feeling.
"UNDERGROUND" is BENEATH the City, tangibly underground.
THE CISTERNS are a midspace between UDG & CTH????
"CHTHONIC" is WAY below the surface; in the "bodymap" it pings the INTESTINES???? below the navel. which is FITTING because THAT'S WHERE TRAUMA GETS HELD!!!

We NEED to have a deep "meditative" session soon to FEEL THIS OUT IN REALTIME, with NEW ACTIVE DATA.
We also need new jargon for "meditation" because that's NOT what we're actually doing; we're just going into an INNERSTATE where we are actively, industriously conscious WHILE letting the subconscious flow into our awareness and thus reveal how it works AS we explore INSIDE.

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