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prismaticbleed) wrote2011-10-29 09:40 am
prismaticbleed) wrote2011-10-29 09:40 am
the beginning
Yes, I was too cruel.
Yes, I was too harsh.
I only meant to speak the truth, but I was too blind to see it.
I have hurt many. I have damaged many.
But at the same time I have achieved the exact opposite.
I hold no grudges. I have forgiven every soul that ever transgressed me.
I have no regrets, even after 21 years, for I now understand what it truly means to live.
I was always told, 'you have plenty of time left.' 'Wait until you grow older.'
But what does it mean to grow older? And what time is there besides right now?
I refuse to neglect the dreams and goals I was told to wait upon.
Yes, I may have taken it all for granted.
Yet, I can never express how much they all mean to me.
Ever since my childhood, I knew I would die at this age.
I was told to stop being silly. I was told to stop worrying.
As it turns out, neither side understood what it really meant to die.
There are so many things I have done,
and so many things I have said,
simply because I realized time held no real power over me, and tried again.
I have met and lost so many souls since my first days in this world, it would be near impossible for me to list you all here.
Rest assured I will always remember you, and hold nothing against you.
To all those I have deeply loved... in my heart, in my past or at a distance... nothing has changed. Even now, nothing has faded. If anything, it is now so much brighter.
This will not be the last you hear of me, I promise.
I may be battered and bruised, but my soul still shines.
If you can find it in your heart to walk with me, thank you.
The right words were never words at all.
In this moment I have no regrets.
Above all else, the most incredible truth is that my life has not been lived in vain.
I know that I have truly inspired, enlightened, uplifted. I have saved a life, and in another sense, I have created one.
God had mercy on me.
My life can be painful, and it can be difficult, but I will no longer run.
I am thankful I got to die, and now...
Now I understand what lies beyond.
Life is always worth living.
This is my second chance, and in its light and dark alike, it has been worth every moment.
-JL
Yes, I was too harsh.
I only meant to speak the truth, but I was too blind to see it.
I have hurt many. I have damaged many.
But at the same time I have achieved the exact opposite.
I hold no grudges. I have forgiven every soul that ever transgressed me.
I have no regrets, even after 21 years, for I now understand what it truly means to live.
I was always told, 'you have plenty of time left.' 'Wait until you grow older.'
But what does it mean to grow older? And what time is there besides right now?
I refuse to neglect the dreams and goals I was told to wait upon.
Yes, I may have taken it all for granted.
Yet, I can never express how much they all mean to me.
Ever since my childhood, I knew I would die at this age.
I was told to stop being silly. I was told to stop worrying.
As it turns out, neither side understood what it really meant to die.
There are so many things I have done,
and so many things I have said,
simply because I realized time held no real power over me, and tried again.
I have met and lost so many souls since my first days in this world, it would be near impossible for me to list you all here.
Rest assured I will always remember you, and hold nothing against you.
To all those I have deeply loved... in my heart, in my past or at a distance... nothing has changed. Even now, nothing has faded. If anything, it is now so much brighter.
This will not be the last you hear of me, I promise.
I may be battered and bruised, but my soul still shines.
If you can find it in your heart to walk with me, thank you.
The right words were never words at all.
In this moment I have no regrets.
Above all else, the most incredible truth is that my life has not been lived in vain.
I know that I have truly inspired, enlightened, uplifted. I have saved a life, and in another sense, I have created one.
God had mercy on me.
My life can be painful, and it can be difficult, but I will no longer run.
I am thankful I got to die, and now...
Now I understand what lies beyond.
Life is always worth living.
This is my second chance, and in its light and dark alike, it has been worth every moment.
-JL